Title: Unrequited

Part 8

Author: Lizzie

Rating: R

Content: Not a lot besides some very light m/m and a whole bunch of total silliness.

Disclaimer: Characters don't belong to me. They belong to WWF and Titan Sports. No copyright infringement intended.
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There was this wonderful warm feeling that spread through him as Adam said the words. It made his heart flutter, made him feel just the faintest bit queasy. He almost couldn't believe he'd heard the words. Except he had. He'd said it. But then he realised what was making him feel uneasy - Adam couldn't mean it. And if he believed the words he could end up even more hurt than he was already. He couldn't afford to believe it, no matter how much he wanted to, because he knew Adam, he'd known him for years, and this just couldn't be right. No way, no how.

"Adam, don't tease me like this, okay?" Jay said, sitting down on the edge of the bed, rubbing his eyes. "I know you're not gay. You're the straightest person I know. You're just confused or something, or guilty or whatever. Maybe you were drunk after all. Just don't do this to me, okay? Don't tell me that when I know you can't mean it".

He felt sick. Here he was hearing the words he'd been wanting and wishing and hoping he could hear for years, and now he was hearing them he knew they were a lie. It was too much. Until he felt Adam's fingers underneath his chin, tilting his head up. He met his gaze, eyes blurred with tears he hadn't realised were forming.

"I mean it", Adam said.

"But you can't!"

"Trust me, I do".

"But."

"Jay, I may be a complete ass at times, but I'm not wrong about this. It's not easy for me to say, either. God knows this isn't easy for me. I'm in love with you. You're a guy and I'm in love with you. What do you think this is doing to me? But it's true. It's taken a lot for me to realise it and I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to kick my ass for what I've put you through, but it's true. I saw what was happening with Matt and Jeff and I knew I couldn't deny it anymore. It's just such a fucking waste `cause I know you love me and I love you too and I'm pushing you away because of it. Jay". A small smile flickered across Adam's lips as he ran his thumb over Jay's bottom lip, making him shudder. "I'm sorry. I fucked up. When I. when I made love to you it was amazing. Not just because I'd never done that with a guy before, but because it was with you, you understand? Because I'm in love with you, and I'd be stupid to let my own stupid-ass hang- ups get in the way of that. I love you".

And he knelt down, between Jay's thighs, leant forward and pressed a kiss to his forehead. Then to his cheek, to the tip of his nose, to his neck, to his collarbone, his chin, his jaw, and his lips. Then his hands were in his hair, pulling him closer until they were pressed together, and finally Jay understood that Adam really did want this. He pulled back slightly and looked down into his eyes, saw the fear and the vulnerability, but also the raw, pulsing want, the love. Adam loved him, wanted him. Adam loved him! Before he knew it he was sitting there grinning like an idiot with Adam kneeling between his thighs, his hands resting lightly on his hips. And that was when he realised it was all worth it. Every second of pain, every moment they'd been apart, every time he'd blamed himself and wondered if they'd ever have anything like the friendship they'd had before. Because now he knew they could have so much more. Adam had just needed all that to realise.

"But you don't like guys." Jay muttered as Adam leaned in to kiss him again.

"No, but I like you", he said with a grin.

***

Adam didn't have to say a word - Jay already knew what he wanted, what he had to do to make things right between them once and for all. He had to show him it was okay to feel the way he felt, that he was loved in return. And although he knew there were other ways to show him, there was one very direct and very specific way Adam had in mind. And this time he'd do it.

He didn't have to ask if it was what Adam wanted - when he stood and pulled him with him, when he started to tug off Adam's shirt, he knew from the look in his eyes that he wanted it. He smiled as a blush crept up Adam's neck and cheeks when they were finally standing there together, naked, beside the bed. Then he kissed him, guided him back to the bed, sat him down, laid him out, stretched out on top of him, feeling the press of Adam's hardness against hid thigh. It was incredible. He'd never thought this could happen, not without copious amounts of alcohol or Adam having a complete personality transplant. But there they were.

"This is going to feel a little weird", Jay whispered, pulling back, trailing his hands down over Adam's bare skin, feeling him shudder. He reached down off the bed and scooped up Jeff's bag, pulling out the lube he knew was sitting in one of the side pockets, spreading it over his fingers, eyes locking with Adam's beneath him as he brushed his fingertips over his skin, ghosting over his thighs and lower, pressing at the opening. Adam bit down on his lip and Jay froze for a second before Adam nodded and gave him a little panicky smile.

Adam was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Before long he was fighting the loss of his inhibitions, trying not to fuck himself on Jay's fingers, whimpering, clawing at the sheets. Jay knew what the incoherent words were begging for. He withdrew his fingers, crawled up over Adam's shivering body and brushed his lips against his.

"What do you want?" he whispered beside Adam's ear.

"You", Adam choked, pushing him back to look him straight in the eyes. "You. Inside me. Now".

Jay just smiled and sat back on his heels, reaching for the lube.

"This is going to hurt", he told him. "I wish it didn't have to, but it will. Just. just bear with it and it'll get better, you'll see". Adam nodded. Jay swallowed hard and leaned forward.

Adam whimpered as Jay pushed inside of him, as slow as he could, trying to give him time to adjust. He could see the pain on Adam's face, although he was trying his best to hide it, and it was just killing him. But then the grip on his biceps tightened and he felt Adam pressing back against him, drawing him in further. He couldn't stop himself from rocking gently, angling slightly to hit the spot inside Adam that he knew would drive him completely out of his mind.
"What the hell was that?" Adam's eyes went wide.

"I think you just found your prostate, Adam", Jay said with a smile.

"Do it again".

So he did. Over and over, slow at first then faster and faster, thrusting in deeper, hearing Adam's moans, feeling his hips thrust up against him, his muscles tensing, eyes on his the whole time until that one nudge that pushed him over the edge. He shuddered and moaned, coming against Jay's stomach, the sensation all he needed to drive him over too.

Then Adam reached up and pulled him down beside him, into his arms. He smiled, pressing a kiss to Jay's lips.

"I love you", he whispered, a look of vulnerability in his eyes. Jay
smiled.

"I love you too", he said, and the look disappeared.

***

"Uh, is there something you two want to tell us?"

The voice at the bottom of the bed, the coughing, the door opening and slamming, woke both Adam and Jay. Jay was pretty sure there'd be bruises on his arm where Adam was gripping it so tightly, and the mortified look on his face wasn't exactly promising. He looked up. It was Jeff, with Matt in tow.

"Uh." Jay started, no idea what to say, brushing his hair back behind one ear with his free hand then pulling the sheets up a little higher. "Well."

"Yeah?" Jeff said with a slightly amused look on his face.

"We're together. Me and Jay. We're together". Adam sounded a lot more sure of himself than Jay knew he was, could tell from the way he was gripping his forearm. But the words made him smile.

"Well, it's about time!" Jeff exclaimed before Matt elbowed him in the ribs.

"I guess that means you're not gonna throw me out today", Jay whispered, leaning up close to Adam's ear.

"If I wasn't such an ass I wouldn't have thrown you out last time", he said, punctuating the sentence with a kiss.

"Uh, we'll leave you to it, guys", Matt said, backing out the door.
"Yeah, appreciate it", Adam said, hauling himself up to sit astride Jay's legs. The door slammed shut as Adam leaned in for a kiss.
"You know this is gonna be hard on me, right?" Adam asked, smoothing Jay's hair back from his face.

Jay nodded. "Yeah, I know".

"I don't know how to deal with this".

Jay smiled, pulling Adam down on top of him. "We'll deal with it together", he said.