Title: Unrequited
Part 7
Author: Lizzie
Rating: R
Content: Not a lot besides some very light m/m and a whole bunch of total silliness.
Disclaimer: Characters don't belong to me. They belong to WWF and Titan Sports. No copyright infringement intended.
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The knock at the door took Jay by surprise - he'd been sitting on the
bed he'd been sharing with Jeff, thinking back over his last
encounter with Adam when suddenly there was a great rapping at the
door that almost scared him out of his skin. Figuring it must be Jeff
coming back to say he'd forgotten his key or he needed a coat or
something, he mooched on over to the door and fiddled with the lock
until it finally worked and he could pull it open.
"Hi, Jay", Adam said, pushing his hair back behind one ear. Jay just
stared at him. "Can I come in? I kinda think we, uh, need to talk".
Slowly Jay nodded, stepping aside enough for Adam to walk into the
room, flinching when Adam's shoulder brushed his chest. He swung the
door shut, leaning his forehead forward against it for a second as he
tried to regain his composure. But it wasn't working. His heart was
hammering and suddenly he didn't feel all that steady on his feet.
And all because Adam had walked into the room.
"So, you wanted to say something?" he said, turning and walking
across the room, leaning back against the wall, crossing his arms
over his chest.
Adam nodded. "Yeah, I uh, just thought I should, uh, tell you, that
I, well."
And the phone rang.
Jay bit his lip as he strode across the room, passing Adam, picking
up the receiver.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Jay. It's Billy. I just wanted to say that."
"Billy, look, I really can't do this now. Adam's here. Can I call you
back?"
"No, it's okay, I. just tell Matt and Jeff I'm sorry, okay?"
Jay frowned, just for a second, before suddenly it dawned on
him. "Billy, what have you done?"
"Didn't Adam tell you?"
"No, he didn't. You, Billy, you told Vince, didn't you".
"Yeah, yeah Jay I did. And I'm sorry - I never meant to get them into
trouble but I didn't know what else to do, y'know? I was desperate. I
hope they won't be too mad at me. I told Vince it was a mistake,
though. He thinks I'm an idiot and I've embarrassed him but I've put
it right. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. It's just I. well, I saw them
kissing once, when I was trying to find you, and I just thought that
if I could split them up then maybe Jeff wouldn't have as much time
for you. I know it doesn't make sense `cause you weren't really with
Jeff and if he left Matt then maybe then he'd just spend more and
more time with you, but he'd be too upset to want you, and I've
really made a mess of things. I was just so jealous of them, of him,
because you left me and all I really wanted was to get you back, Jay.
I didn't mean for this to happen this way, I swear. Just tell Matt
and Jeff I'm sorry, okay? I'm glad Adam made me change my mind. It
was just so wrong. I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. You're never gonna
come back to me. I should've known that. I should just accept it,
huh?"
"Yeah, Billy, you should. Look, I've got to go".
"I understand. Seeya, Jay. I'll miss you".
"Seeya, Billy".
He put down the receiver in stunned silence. Except he wasn't really
sure he was stunned per se - the more he thought about it now the
more it seemed to make sense. He'd wondered who it could've been that
told Vince, thought it might have been Adam or Amy, when all the time
the most likely candidate had been Billy. Jealous Billy. No wonder he
hadn't tried to push him for what was wrong. No wonder he'd taken him
back so readily. He'd been the one behind it all along. He'd told
Vince to get Jay away from Jeff in some bizarre way. Maybe to Billy
it made sense.
"He told Matt he'd overheard you telling Vince", Adam told him, his
voice small.
"Oh". So now it made sense. Now he knew why Matt had been so ready to
blame Jay. Aside from the fact that he probably knew Jeff was
sleeping with him.
He looked up at Adam; he was standing across the room, looking down
at his hands, one rubbing circles on the back of the other. He almost
looked guilty, or uncomfortable. Jay guessed it was probably the
latter, knowing Adam.
"So that's what you came to tell me", he said, not sure whether to
feel relieved or disappointed.
"Yeah, I guess", Adam replied in that same tiny voice. It almost
didn't sound like him it was so unbelievably small. "I just thought
you should know. `Cause Matt's been blaming you. I didn't think that
was fair when I thought I knew who'd done it. And I found out. I was
talking to Billy and I got him to admit it. He really didn't mean to
hurt anyone, he just wanted you back. He wanted that so bad, y'know.
He didn't realise what sort of trouble he'd cause. But I got him to
go to Vince and take it back. I hope everything's gonna be okay now.
Do you think Matt and Jeff are gonna be okay?"
Jay nodded, still rather mystified by the way Adam was talking to
him. He really didn't seem like the same person - it was like he was
nervous around him, like he wasn't quite sure if it was okay to be as
familiar with him as they'd always been. And he found himself feeling
oddly guilty. He knew why, too.
"Thanks for letting me know", he said. "I wondered why Matt thought
it was me, who told Vince, all of that. You've kinda cleared it up
for me. Thanks for making Billy see sense. I didn't know who to think
it was. I. With the way you've been acting, hanging around with Matt
and Billy, avoiding me, I kinda thought it might."
".be me. I know. But it wasn't. I couldn't do that to Matt and Jeff.
I know what they mean to each other. You should know I couldn't do
it".
"I know, I'm sorry".
"Don't be. After the way I've been acting I don't blame you. I'm
sorry for that too, y'know".
"You are?" Jay asked, frowning.
"Yeah, I am. I'm, well, I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have, uh,
treated you, that way after, after that night. I'm really, really
sorry. It was wrong of me. I'm so stupid sometimes, but I just didn't
know how to deal with it, `cause I mean, well, you know I'd never,
uh, been with, a, uh, guy before, and it was kinda, well, weird for
me, waking up, with you, like that. And knowing what you'd said to
me, about how you feel, too. I didn't want to believe that I'd, that
we'd, y'know, done, it. And it's not an excuse, `cause I should've
known better than to say what I said, and I'm sorry because I know
how much I must've hurt you, and if it's any consolation I've felt
terrible `cause I just know how wrong I was to say that to you.
because the fact is, that, uh, you know I wasn't drunk, right?"
Jay nodded slowly. He didn't trust himself to speak.
"I just freaked out. I didn't think I would. I thought I'd be able to
cope. But I woke up and saw you lying there with me and I freaked
out. Because I didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea and think I'm
gay `cause I'm not. I'm straight. It's just, well, I needed to know
what it was like for you, and I wanted it to be with you `cause well,
you're my best friend, and I don't think I could've done it with
anyone else. I'm sorry I said you'd taken advantage of me because I
know if anyone took advantage then it was me `cause I knew you
wouldn't be able to say no. I've just screwed things up so badly and
I was hoping that maybe this stuff with Matt and Jeff and how I got
Billy to take it back might help to get you to forgive me, `cause,
uh, I've, I miss you".
Jay just couldn't say anything. There were no words. He just stood
there and stared at him, almost slack-jawed.
"No, don't say anything, it's okay, `cause I'll understand if you
can't forgive me - I've made such a complete mess of everything, and
just thing with Billy can't make up for that, I know. But I didn't
just do it for you, I did it `cause I didn't want to see Matt and
Jeff split up like that, `cause even if I don't get exactly how it's
right, I know it's right that they're together. It wouldn't be right
for them to be split up, no mater what, `cause they just belong
together, y'know? When you see them together you've just gotta know
it `cause they're just perfect together and it'd be so wrong for
anything to come between them. Billy wasn't trying to hurt them, he
was just trying to get you back. Because he wants you so much. And.
well, I think I understand how he feels".
"Adam, what are you saying?"
"I don't know how to tell you".
Jay's heart was hammering, but he was trying to calm down because
this couldn't be what it sounded like. It just couldn't. That would
be too much to hope for. That'd be too good to be true. He wasn't
saying what he thought he was saying. He just couldn't' be. "Adam,
for Christ's sake just say it!"
"I think I'm in love with you".