Title: Is This Really It?

Author: Cheryl

Disclaimer: Characters don't belong to me. They belong to WWF and Titan Sports. No copyright infringement intended.
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Anastasia's been a wrestling fan since she was in the ninth grade. Her family would watch it when she was younger but it didn't really catch her interest until she was older. Edge, her favorite wrestler, used to be plastered all over her walls in her bedroom. Now she's in college and all she brought with her was a little picture in a photo frame of Edge and Christian holding their tag team titles and all her PPV specials she bought or taped. Periodically she'd call up her friend from high school and tell him about the WWF coming to town and how'd she was going to the event.

"I'll be sure to hold up a sign that says 'Hi Ryan, I'm right here' or something okay?"

"Yeah okay Stace. You know, I remember in high school when you'd be sitting in class and say nothing but Edge this or Edge that. Don't you think you're getting kind of old to have celebrity crushes?"

"Come on Ryan, do you know how many celebrities I've dated? Lemme think, AJ of the Backstreet Boys, Mark Wahlberg, Joaquin Phoenix, and number fourteen on the 76ers. I forgot his name though.... Anyway, you know that Edge is single now. I told you it wouldn't last. Neither did Christian's marriage. I seen it coming."

"Okay, well that's what happens when you become famous yourself. That double platinum record, the modeling career. I thought you wanted to become a professional wrestler?"

"I did but it was hard since I came to Florida State and I do nothing but party, eat, sleep, study, and stuff. When you going to come out and visit me?"

"As soon as the semester's over. I'll bring Erica with me and we can all hang out okay?"

"Yeah okay, well, my next class starts in about 15 minutes so I have to get going so talk to you later."

Anastasia rushed to her BMW outside and took the 7 HWY to Florida State. It sucks not living on campus anymore, she thought to herself. She had exactly 3 hours after class to prepare for the event tonight at the Tampa Center. This requires enough time for her to dress and make the 4-hour drive down there from Tallahassee.

After class she returned home and began to quickly get ready. She arranged for her name to be on the list at the backstage entrance and was having her limo driver Jesse pick her up from the house. Stacy slipped on a black skirt with slits on both sides and a midriff black shirt that was haltered with ties on the neck and back. This complimented her large Chinese dragon on her left shoulder blade, Chinese symbol representing "eternity" on her right shoulder, and playboy bunny on her stomach area. She grabbed her makeup bag and boots and rushed out to the limo. On the way there, she was able to successfully do her makeup without defaults and slide on her tall black boots.

The limo pulled up to the venue hours later and Jesse soon came around to open the door.

"Stace, I remember when you played this venue. It was your first show, man have times changed."

"They sure have Jess, are you going to come in or no?"

"No, I'm going to go cruise the town. Gimme a call or whatever when you want to be picked up okay?"

"Okay, have fun okay? Here, take this," she said, handing him a $100 bill, "have fun and do something interesting so you can tell me on the way home."

"Thanks Stace. Have fun," he said as she walked to the entrance. She checked in on the list and was given a necklace. This was the first time she actually was able to see backstage and everything that goes on there. She encountered Shane McMahon first and they both stood and talked.

"Hi, it's a real pleasure to meet you Anastasia."

"Please, call me Stacy and it's nice to meet you too."

"What brings you to the event?"

"I'm a really big fan actually so I decided I'd come to the backstage area this time. I usually sit out with the crowd."

"Well, let me introduce you to some of the wrestlers okay?" he said, releasing his elbow so she can hold his arm.

"Thanks that'd be great," she said accepting the offer. They walked around the backstage area and she was introduced to the Big Show, Rhyno, Jerry Lynn, Jericho, Austin, Chyna, Stephanie, Vince, and Linda McMahon.

"Let's meet some of the tag teams now. They're in the back getting ready for the TLC 14 match."

He led Stacy to this back area and he opened the first door. Inside, the Dudley Boyz were talking about the match and Shane walked right in and introduced her.

"Guys, I want you to meet Anastasia, you know, the R & B singer."

"Duh Shane, of course I know her," D-Von said, coming over and shaking her hand, "my kids love you."

"Oh that's great. I'll leave them each a autograph if you'd like."

"Thanks," he said as she signed a towel.

After, they went next door to where the Hardy Boyz were talking with Lita about what they were going to do after the match.

"Hey, I want you guys to meet Anastasia," Shane said. Suddenly, his cell phone rang.

"Yeah, oh hi dad. Yeah, uh huh. Oh really? Okay, I'll be there. All right, bye. Sorry Stacy but I have to go handle some business right now can I leave you to wondering the rest of backstage by yourself?"

"Sure, I'll be fine. Thanks Shane." He ran quickly from the room and Stacy continued to talk with the Hardyz and Lita.

"I've got this question, now it's just a rumor and you don't have to answer it but, at any point or time was there a threesome going on with you three?"

"Ha, I'll answer this boys, no, there wasn't. I want to know who started that. I date Matt and Matt only. Jeff's a great guy and she's like my best friend."

"I was just wondering, you know those rumors."

"So are you having fun tonight?" Jeff said, sitting next to Stacy on a bench.

"Umm, yeah, lots. I really enjoy these events."

"Jesus Jeff, why don't you just kiss her ass already? Sorry Stace, my brother Jeff likes you that's all. He has you all over his wall at home."

"Really? That's sweet Jeff," she said, playing along by pinching his cheek. "I'm going to go and walk around a little. Good luck tonight and have kay?"

"We will," Matt said.

"Bye Stacy," Jeff said.

She laughed, "Bye Jeff."

She walked out of the room and looked at her watch. 8:30. Becoming a little bored, she started snooping around different rooms. She opened a door at the end of the hallway and peered inside. There was Edge and Christian changing into their wrestling pants! She closed the door and knocked on it quietly. "Yeah," she heard a voice say inside. She opened the door and they stood there, staring at the door.

"Umm, hi I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm..."

"You're Anastasia, the singer," Edge said, walking over and shaking her hand.

"Yeah, how'd you know?"

"We seen your name on the list tonight," Christian said, shaking her hand also. "Here, have a seat," he said, pulling out a chair.

"Thanks. I just wanted to wish you luck tonight. I didn't want to interrupt anything."

"Oh don't worry you didn't. We were just getting ready to go out there. The match is going to start soon. Are you going to watch it?"

"Yeah, I just haven't found a monitor yet to watch."

"You can watch it in here. There's a monitor over there. We have to go, we'll see you after the match."

"Okay, bye and good luck!"

"Thanks."

"Jay, I'm getting that feeling again," Edge said, walking to the stage.

"Go for her man, she's single right?"

"I don't know. I think so. Didn't she date Mark Wahlberg or something?"

"Yeah, but I'm pretty sure she's single now. Ask her to dinner after the event or something."

"Okay I will but first, the match."

"That was a great match you guys! You're tag team champs again!"

"Yeah, it's a great feeling performing for fans. You know what it's like don't you Stacy?" Christian said, drinking water.

"Oh yeah, I love every moment of it. I used to want to be a professional wrestler. But I got caught into the singing/modeling loop and that's where I ended up. I ended up not having time to train."

"Well, you're still successful though. Can you turn around while Jay and I change?"

"Yeah sure," she said, turning her chair around.

"Okay, you can turn back around now," he said, folding everything into his suitcase.

"Well, since the show's over I guess I'll be going cause I have a long drive back to Tallahassee," Stacy said, pulling out her cell phone.

"Umm, Anastasia, I was wondering if you'd like to go with Jay and I to go get some dinner?"

"Umm, sure that's fine. Who's driving?"

"Jay do you want to drive?"

"Sorry Adam but you have to because I'm not going to go. I'm really tired so I think I'm just going to go home and rest."

"Okay man," he said, giving Christian the look of death.

"Lemme just call my limo driver and tell him what I'm doing," Stacy said, making a quick phone call to him.

"Are you ready?" Edge said, picking up his bag.

"Yeah, let's go." They walked out to Edge's Tahoe parked in the parking lot. Being a perfect gentleman, he opened the door for Stacy and then went around and got himself in. He drove them to a little restaurant a couple miles away. They ordered and Stacy started to spark up a conversation, after all, this is her celebrity crush.

"So Edge..."

"Please, call me Adam. Edge is just my stage name."

"Okay, Adam, you live in Tampa right?"

"Yeah, I used to own a house in Los Angeles too but now that's where my ex-wife lives. Tell me, how long have you been a fan of wrestling?"

"Well, my family watched it when I was really little but I didn't become a fan until the ninth grade."

"Who's your favorite wrestler?"

"I can't believe you asked me that?"

"Why do you say that?"

"Okay, I loved you ever since the ninth grade. You were my favorite and the only thing I talked about. I feel embarrassed telling you that," she said, burying her face in her hands.

"It's okay," he said, taking her hands from her face. She looked deep into his eyes and then pulled away quickly averting her eyes also. The waiter then came with their food, breaking up the moment. They ate in silence, not looking at eachother. While waiting for the check, Edge simply asked, "So how old are you anyway? You're still in school huh?"

"Yeah, I'm still in school. I'm 24 and because of my singing career I was bumped a few years. I'll be graduating in three months with a Bachelor's in both Journalism and Musical Voice."

"That's so weird! I have a BA in Journalism too!"

"Well, it's getting late so I better call Jesse. Can he pick me up at your house?"

"Yeah, tell him to take HWY 7 to Excalibur and then get off and go to Sunset and its 457 Sunset."

"Okay," she said, holding the phone to her ear. "Hi Jesse, umm can you pick me up at Adam's house. He says to take HWY 7 to Excalibur and then go to Sunset. Its 457 Sunset. Okay? All right, bye."

"Okay, that's done. Are you ready?"

"Yeah let's go," he said, holding out his hand to her. She reached her hand out and they went to the car and drove to his house. It was a large, two-story house with lanterns in the front and a large porch. They sat on the porch and waited for Jesse to come. It didn't take long and soon the limo pulled up. Edge and Stacy both stood up and began to walk down the steps and to the limo. Jesse got out and opened the door.

"Thank you so much for dinner. I had a wonderful time tonight."

"It was no problem. It was great meeting you."

"Same to you. Tell Jason that I said it was nice meeting him too." They hugged and then Edge backed up.

"Bye Anastasia."

"Bye. Take care," she said as she lowered into the car and Jesse closed the door. She watched as the limo drove off and Edge walked into the house. Immediately she called up Ryan to tell him what happened.

"Hello?"

"Ryan, oh my gosh, you couldn't even imagine what happened tonight."

"What?"

"I met Edge, and Christian, and Lita, and Jeff and Matt. It was great. Then, Edge and Christian let me watch the TLC match from their locker room and then Edge took me to dinner. And now Jesse just picked me up from his house and I blew it now cuz I'll never see him again and so now my life is complete. I can die a happy person."

"Hey, can you tell Jesse that he owes me $50?"

"Did you hear anything I just said?"

"Yeah but come on Stace, what are you doing? This is Edge we're talking about. If you date him and stuff then break up, you'll freak out and the world will officially end. Are you sure this is the right thing? I don't think all this was supposed to happen."

"Come on, can't you even try and be happy for me?"

"I guess but don't say I didn't warn you."

"I'm not going to see him again anyway."

Eight months later, I was taping a special at the MTV studios in New York. It was good because I was away from the music scene for awhile due to modeling for Chanel in Europe. The response was amazing and the sexy Ananda Lewis greeted me at the show. It was a special releasing my CD "Calling All" and it was a huge success. Nearly 4 thousand people crowded the studios. At the end of the show, I went back to my temporary dressing room while the crowd died down and I packed to leave. I had my stylist, makeup artist, wardrobe director, publicist, and manager running around trying to get ready to leave. Just as I was getting my makeup removed, a knock on the door was heard. "Can someone please open that?" I said, looking out of the corner of my eye. Someone closest to the door opened it.

"Hey Stace," a familiar voice said behind me.

"So you haven't talked to her?" Jay said to Adam.

"No, I never got around to calling her. I missed my chance Jay. It's been eight months, she probably doesn't even remember me."

"C'mon Adam, cheer up. Here, I'll play our music."

"Shut up man, I'm serious. I bet she's up in New York right now hooking up with her ex or something."

"Hey AJ, how are you?" I said, jumping up from the chair.

"Fine, I came to see your CD launch. You're really successful now. You're also blowing up the runway so I hear."

"Yeah, you're not doing so bad either. Especially since Brian and Kev's marriages. I'm happy for you."

"See, I came to talk to you about getting back together."

"What?"

"So you blew him off?" Ryan said on the other end.

"Yeah, he was getting all weird and stuff. I don't ever want to date him ever again. Not since his thing with Amanda, she's gross."

"Have you talked to Edge?"

"No, I haven't got around to calling him. Should I?"

"I don't know, if you want. Just remember what I said."

"Kay, Well, Imma go kay?"

"All right, bye." Just as I hung up the phone, the doorbell rang. I rushed to answer it and there stood Edge at the door, roses in hand.

"Anastasia," he said, smiling.

"Oh my gosh, this is such a surprise," I said, wrapping my arms around him and hugging him. "I just got home like an hour ago. You made great timing."

"Here, I brought you these," he said, handing the flowers to me. I invited him in and walked to the kitchen to put the flowers in water.

"I can't believe you drove up here! It's 5 in the afternoon! It's so late!"

"Yeah well, I didn't realize how far you actually live. Usually I fly everywhere."

"Sorry I can't feed you dinner or anything but I haven't had the time to restock my fridge. Would you like some wine or something?"

"Sure okay." Edge said, eyeing me as I went to the bar in my kitchen and pulled out some wine and glasses. I returned with the alcohol and sat next to him on my couch.

"So, what brought you to Tallahassee?"

"I wanted to check up on you. It's been eight months, I didn't want you to forget me."

"Hey, I thought you'd forget me!" I said, laughing. We gulped the wine down quickly and I offered him more. He accepted but when I went to get the glass he grabbed my hand and I averted my eyes towards him.

"What?" I said, sitting back down.

"I want to ask for permission."

"For what?"

"To kiss you."

"Don't ask, this isn't school," I said, leaning over and kissing him. I caught him by surprise and it was hilarious so I tried to hold back my laughter. Wouldn't that be embarrassing to laugh? I tried not to click my teeth with his in fear that if I did I'd hurt them. They're the best things about him besides his hair, which my fingers are in, and his body, which my body is up against. Okay, I'm turning into a teenager again. "Wait, don't you have taping tomorrow?" I said, interrupting.

"Yeah, in Orlando."

"Shouldn't you get going then?" I said, getting up and putting the glasses into the sink.

"I have my stuff in the car. I'm set and Orlando's only about an hour away from here right?"

I started to smile at his comment. "Come on," I said grabbing his hand and dragging him upstairs.

The next morning I woke up to the feeling that eyes were staring at me. I opened my eyes and Adam laid there, staring at me.

"Good morning," I said, pulling myself closer to him and lying my head on his chest.

"Morning."

"Tell me, why were you staring at me?"

"I was just thinking about how I ever ended up with you. Tell me how I ever ended up with you," he said, stroking my hair.

"It's simple. It was destined to be I guess."

Suddenly his cell phone rang, startling up both. He jumped up and answered it.

"Hello? Yeah? Okay, sure, yeah I'll be there. I know okay. Bye."

"Who was that?"

"Oh, I have to get going. It was the business. They want me to get there a little early. I'll call you later okay?" he said, getting dressed and heading towards the door.

"Umm, okay. You know I'm flying out to Seattle today. I won't see you for at least two months due to the tour."

"Oh baby, I'll miss you so much," he said, coming and kissing me on the forehead, "I have to go." He walked out of the bedroom and I could hear the door close downstairs.

"Are you sure you don't know where he is Jay? I haven't talked to him for three weeks. I call his cell phone and he doesn't answer. I page him and he doesn't answer. Why is he ignoring me?"

"Stace, you have to calm down. Adam's not ignoring you because he loves you. He has to be busy doing something because every time one of our matches are done he leaves the venue and nobody sees him anymore that night."

"I hope you're right Jay. I'm going to fly out to Los Angeles and come to your Raw event okay? Can you put me on the list so I can get in? Don't tell Adam that I'm going to be there though, I want it to be a surprise."

"Okay Stace, I got it handled."

"Okay thanks. I think Jesse's out there on vacation so he can probably drive me to the venue. Thanks Jay and I'll see you in a couple of days." I hang up the phone and try to call up Edge again but the phone just keeps on ringing and ringing.

My flight to Los Angeles was delayed for so long that when I got in I had only an hour until the show started. Jesse thankfully picked me up from the airport and drove me to the venue.

"Do you want me to check you in at the hotel? What name are you under?"

"That'd be great Jesse. I'm under Stay-c. Spelled S, T, A, Y, hyphen, C. Don't worry about having to pick me up, I'm sure Adam'll take me to the hotel. Thanks and I'll call you later okay?"

"Okay, take care sweetheart."

I went through the backstage entrance and standing there was Christian.

"Hey Jay!" I said, giving him a huge hug. "Have you seen Adam?"

"He got here earlier. He should be in his locker room. We got our own now. I haven't seen him in like 2 hours though." He pointed into the direction of the room and then we parted ways. As I was getting closer to the room, people standing around gave me weird looks and gasped as I walked by them.

"Gosh, you'd think they're used to seeing celebrities," I said to myself as I stood in front of his room. I slowly turned the knob and opened the door. "Adam..." I said, peeking my head around the door. The sight I saw was more than I could bear. There was Adam, the love of my life, Edge, on top of Trish Stratus, sexing her. Then it all hit me, the people in the hallway, the many unreturned calls, having to leave early. They were all lies; lies made for her. I was in love with him and he didn't love me, he loved her.

Edge quickly jumped up, a look of terror on his face, and Trish, Trish of all people, laid there and just smiled. Something inside me wanted to kill them both right there, to end this affair.

"Adam, what are you doing? Have you completely lost it?"

"Stacy, listen. I'm sorry," he said, trying to comfort me by putting his arms around me.

"No Adam, I mean, Edge, I'm not going to listen. Forget I was ever here and for that matter, forget that I ever existed because I don't want to ever speak to you again. I loved you. But now, I'm not so sure if it was really love now. Good bye Edge." I closed the door and stormed down the hallway, running into Jason.

"Stace. Why are you crying? What happened?" he said, putting his hands on my shoulders.

"What happened? I walked in the room and there was Adam and Trish, together. Why Jay? Why would he do something like that?"

"I don't know Stace, I really don't. Where are you going?"

"I'm going to go back to the hotel. I don't want to be here anymore."

"Well, let me drive you back. I don't have a match tonight and I'm sure it doesn't matter if I accompany Edge or not to his."

"Okay," I said, taking his hand and going out to the car. He drove me to the hotel and I got a key from the front desk. Jay and I stood in the center of the lobby.

"Well, you're here. Listen, I'm really sorry about what Adam did. He's not usually like that, really. I don't know what's gotten into him."

"Thanks Jay but everything happens for a reason. Maybe we weren't meant to be. I'm going to go upstairs," I said, giving him a hug. He walked out of the hotel and the night was over.

The next morning, I woke up and called up Ryan.

"Ryan, I couldn't believe it."

"Stacy, I knew something was up, that's why I was so hesitant to see you two together."

"I know, but there's a missing piece. He didn't do it intentionally, there has to be a reason. And what makes it worse is I think I'm falling for Christian now."

"What ever the reason was, Christian was definitely there for you, showing he also cares. I tell you what, how about you bring Christian and we'll all go out on boat around 10? Taping should be over by then."

"Okay Ryan, I'll give him a call and I'll see you then."

"Okay then, and Stacy, cheer up."

"Man, how could you do something like that to her?" Christian said, backstage.

"I don't know Jay, I fucked up. Now I'm never going to get her back. And what are you talking about? Ever since we broke up you've been catering to her every need. Some friend you are."

"Yeah and some boyfriend you are. I love her Adam and you missed your chance to. I thought you didn't love her. I'm going out with her tonight."

"You're what?"

"You heard me Adam. I'm leaving and I still have to pick her up." He turns around and leaves out of the venue.

"Are you having fun?" Erica asked Jay.

"Oh yeah this is great. Thanks for inviting me," he said, looking around and across the water.

"C'mon," Erica said, dragging away Ryan.

"Come here, I want to show you something," I said, taking Jay to the back of the boat. "Here is where I first thought about becoming a technical wrestler," I said, sitting down on the floor.

"I don't know why you never became one. You're a hell of a character, trust me," he said, sitting next to me.

"Thanks," I said laughing, "I don't know why I never became one either. I guess I was too afraid. I didn't want to have to worry everyday if I was going to die or get seriously injured."

"I don't think about things like that. I live my life as each move comes. You can't think about if you're going to get hurt otherwise paranoia sets in."

"That's true. Jay, promise me you won't do what Adam did to me. I can't get hurt again."

"I promise Anastasia, I won't hurt you." He then leaned down and kissed me.

From that night on, I begin to go with Jay to the tapings whenever I could and everyone got used to the fact that we were dating, everyone except Edge. One night he requested to talk to me alone and I accepted. He took me into his locker room and we begin to talk.

"Listen, I want you know that I'm really sorry. I didn't do it on purpose. I really do love you."

"It's too late Adam, it's over now and I'm with Jason."

"Can you honestly say that you don't love me?" he said, his eyes filling with tears.

"I do love you Adam, I will always love you but you hurt me and now I can't trust you."

"Then if you love me, why are you with him?"

"I'm pregnant Adam okay? Because of that, I love him more. I will never be with you again. I'm dedicated to Jason and Jason only." I buried my face in my hands to not show my tears directly to him.

"I don't believe it," he said, standing up and leaving the room. Then, Jason came in after him and asked me what happened.

"I told him that I loved you. And I also told him something you don't even know."

"What's that?"

"I'm pregnant."

"Oh my gosh," he said, sitting down next to me on the floor. I started to stroke his head as he put it on my lap.

The match started and they didn't say a word to each other but instead fought quietly and separately. The twenty-foot ladder stood at the end of the ring and Edge stood on top. D-Von and Matt Hardy were fighting close to the ladder when they hit it, unscripted, and the ladder went falling over, Edge on top. He fell headfirst and hit his neck on it instantly, snapping it. He toppled to the floor and many people stood up to look. The match stopped and Christian ran to his partner as the other two teams looked on in horror from the ring. People from backstage began to run out there to the ring, including myself. I pushed my way to the front and kneeled down next to Edge.

"Oh shit," I said, rubbing my hand across his cheek repeatedly.

"Stace, I'm so sorry."

"I know baby, I know. Shhh, don't talk okay?" I said, trying to hold back my tears.

"Christian, I can't move my head," he said, paining entering his eyes through tears.

"Stop it man, you're going to be okay. We're going to be tag team champions again, just you wait."

"No we're not. I'm never going to wrestle again. Or walk. I'm going to die, I'm going to die."

"Stop saying that! You aren't. You can't leave me," I said, grasping his hand in mine.

"I love you Stace and I always will. I'm breaking your heart for a second time now and I'm sorry. I never wanted this. I just wanted... I just wanted for us to be happy, and have a family. I never wanted any of this."

"Me neither."

"This all happened for a reason; You, Jay, and the baby. It's fate. This is really it." Suddenly, all his movement stopped. There were screams in the crowd and I got up and stood back, unable to breathe. Christian got up and put his arms around me. I could feel his tears moving down my neck. We watched as they removed his body from the floor. We went backstage and gathered all his stuff from backstage. While gathering everything, I found a letter addressed to myself. I tore it open and it read:

Dear Anastasia,

I don't even know where to start this letter. I'm truly sorry for what I did. I can explain why I did all this....

I just simply tore it up and threw it away. I wasn't going to read it because it's over. We took everything and gave it to Vince, who was going to deliver to Adam's ex-wife in the morning.

Lying in bed at the hotel, he was the only thing I could think of. It didn't feel like he was gone but I knew in my heart that a piece of me was. It was my fault all this happened. Jay's head lay on my stomach and I could feel each tear run down. I felt sorry for him because that was his best friend and the guilt was probably setting in for him.

"I'm so sorry you guys," Amy said to us after the funeral.

"Thanks," I said, as she walked away. "Jason, come on, let's go say our good-byes."

"I can't Stace. I don't want to. I don't want to say goodbye."

"You have to sweetheart. He's gone, you have to try and accept it. We both do."

"Okay, let's go do it." They walked up to the open casket and began to speak.

"Hey bro," Jay said, "It looks like they really did you up. Listen I know how much you loved Stacy but I want you to know that I love her too and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep her happy, just like I know you would've. I'm really going to miss you and I love you man."

"Adam, I want you to know that I'm sorry. It's my entire fault. I wouldn't let you speak and I wouldn't listen. We'd still be together if I did. You never did anything wrong to hurt me, you never did anything intentionally. I love you baby and I don't know how I'm going to live my life without you but I'm going to try. Goodbye baby."

They both left the funeral, alone.

The End